.... it's alll worth it... it's ALLLL worth it...

if it WASN'T all worth it, I'd be a moron! haha.

I've been SO sick for the past few weeks. Morning sickness my sweet ass! ALL FREAKING DAY. *sigh*
And I'm so TIRED. Last night, I went to bed at 11pm, and I slept until NOON today. Apparently Peanut wants me to sleep.

My Fibromyalgia has been acting up a BUNCH, and it's REALLY hard because I can't take anything for it... and my Hyper-Mobility has been evil too. Apparently these weird joint aches are normal in pregnancy, but my excess collagen in my joints doesnt make it any easier!!

I had my 1st migraine since finding out I was pregnant on Tuesday. ... only being exacerbated by VOMITING. Normally when I have a migraine, I take a Midrin, or I use my Imitrex shot... neither of which are OK during pregnancy... so I just toughed it out. Some Tylenol, some Coffee, and napping. Took about 15 hours to go away. blah.

It still hasn't really hit me that we're having a baby. Sean is having the same issue. We talk about it, but it's just not "real" yet.... Next Friday July 17th we have to go back in for an ultrasound... and I'm all wonky about seeing the heartbeat. I KNOW that's when it's going to hit me it's real, and that will probably be when I cry. ha.

anyway. I've spent the day watching episodes of "THE CLEANER", on A&E w/Benjamin Bratt. I'm officially obsessed with the show, and almost every episode makes me cry. If you haven't seen it, check it out :) TOTALLY worth it.

So... it's real now...

This... this is {Peanut}. the Ultrasound places me at 5weeks 2days, my Last period places me at like, 6weeks 3days, my FertilityFriends print out places me at 5weeks 5days. So, we're saying, for now, somewhere between 5-6weeks. I have to go back in 2 weeks on Friday July 17th at 11:30am to get my 2nd ultrasound, which should let us properly date everything.

I had my FULL exam.
Internal (vaginal) UltraSound (I totally wasn't planning for that....) ... it's REALLY as uncomfortable as it sounds. What's MOST uncomfortable is TALKING to the nurse while she HAS the freaking camera wand places somewhere mighty unpleasant. ha.
OOOODLES of bloodwork. LITERALLY. like, 12 vials of blood... felt like a thousand.
Exam... PapSmear, Cultures, ... what I've deemed "Palpation of my Uterus" which the doctor says is "enlarged" and "definitely pregnant"... then all sorts of talking and reviewing.

It still doesn't seem real. There is an alien growing in my uterus. My body is now an apartment for a small being. Seems creepy!!!

When I go back in 2 weeks we should see the Peanut with little arms, and possibly the heartbeat. It's very surreal. VERY SURREAL.


So, all excitement aside, this week has been very taxing. The weather has caused a fabulous Fibromyalgia flare, and I can't take anything. ... oh, wait, I can take Tylenol... which just just a HAIR above NOTHING. The Fibro is irritating my IBS, which is making me feel like CRAP in general, on top of the nauseous, punched in the boobs feeling I'm already experiencing.

LUCKILY, all this hasn't impacted any of the Chiari or Chiari Symptoms. THAT is a plus. My OBGyn knows quite a bit about Chiari, and he's hopeful I'll be ok w/out meds.

At this point, with my weight and medical issues (since they're being controlled and conquered) I really shouldn't have to worry much about being a "High Risk" Pregnancy... but around/after week 20 we should have a better idea.


.... I still can't believe there is a pod person growing in me... weird.

the beginning of life?

So... I've been throwing up on and off, daily, for over a week.

My ultrasound and initial prenatal exam are on Wednesday the 1st of July, and with the help of Fertility Friend we've determined I should be due around February 26th 2010. I'm going to bring my chart to my OBGYN so he can help confirm the dates.

I KNOW we shouldn't be celebrating so early... because anything can happen between week 5 to week 9 or so... but DAMN IT.... We totally can't help it. We've been trying since 2006, and damn it, I'm excited.

I have a lot of questions for my Gyno...
How will my Fibromyalgia affect my pregnancy? What about my Chiari? How is my IBS going to respond to pregnancy? There are a bunch of things I worry about.... Especially surrounding the Chiari... Since it's considered an "neural tube" defect... I worry if I've gotten adequate nutrition and vitamins this far... I've been taking a Prenatal, as well as a DHA & Folic Acid supplement. Then my Vitamin D and a Calcium supplement. ... so I have my fingers crossed.


We have a long road a head of us, but I couldn't be more excited about what the future holds...

well....

In 2 hours.... Sean and I will be married for a year. So many big things going on for us. I can't wait to see what the future brings

Sean and I registered at BabiesRUs today... while we're on vacation and... Sean bought us a 3pack of RedSoxs onsies

Um...

Well...

I've been nauseous and crummy the last few days.

Today, I went to the doctor, and had some blood work done.

it's official. I'm pregnant. I'm NOT kidding. I'm going to be a mommy, and Sean gets his 1st Father's Day this Sunday, which is also our 1 year anniversary.

I'm speechless.

I have to go back any day between Monday and Thursday to have a 2nd blood test, since my hormone levels are a bit low... but we're confident (me and the dr.) it's low because I am not due for my period until Sunday/Monday... so it's really early.

We haven't told anyone yet. We're waiting... until the 2nd round of blood work...

... and now I'm leaving to go camping. I'll be back on Monday...

I feel like I need to throw up. But I'm so excited.


Now... to see how pregnancy and Chiari play...