.... it's alll worth it... it's ALLLL worth it...

if it WASN'T all worth it, I'd be a moron! haha.

I've been SO sick for the past few weeks. Morning sickness my sweet ass! ALL FREAKING DAY. *sigh*
And I'm so TIRED. Last night, I went to bed at 11pm, and I slept until NOON today. Apparently Peanut wants me to sleep.

My Fibromyalgia has been acting up a BUNCH, and it's REALLY hard because I can't take anything for it... and my Hyper-Mobility has been evil too. Apparently these weird joint aches are normal in pregnancy, but my excess collagen in my joints doesnt make it any easier!!

I had my 1st migraine since finding out I was pregnant on Tuesday. ... only being exacerbated by VOMITING. Normally when I have a migraine, I take a Midrin, or I use my Imitrex shot... neither of which are OK during pregnancy... so I just toughed it out. Some Tylenol, some Coffee, and napping. Took about 15 hours to go away. blah.

It still hasn't really hit me that we're having a baby. Sean is having the same issue. We talk about it, but it's just not "real" yet.... Next Friday July 17th we have to go back in for an ultrasound... and I'm all wonky about seeing the heartbeat. I KNOW that's when it's going to hit me it's real, and that will probably be when I cry. ha.

anyway. I've spent the day watching episodes of "THE CLEANER", on A&E w/Benjamin Bratt. I'm officially obsessed with the show, and almost every episode makes me cry. If you haven't seen it, check it out :) TOTALLY worth it.

So... it's real now...

This... this is {Peanut}. the Ultrasound places me at 5weeks 2days, my Last period places me at like, 6weeks 3days, my FertilityFriends print out places me at 5weeks 5days. So, we're saying, for now, somewhere between 5-6weeks. I have to go back in 2 weeks on Friday July 17th at 11:30am to get my 2nd ultrasound, which should let us properly date everything.

I had my FULL exam.
Internal (vaginal) UltraSound (I totally wasn't planning for that....) ... it's REALLY as uncomfortable as it sounds. What's MOST uncomfortable is TALKING to the nurse while she HAS the freaking camera wand places somewhere mighty unpleasant. ha.
OOOODLES of bloodwork. LITERALLY. like, 12 vials of blood... felt like a thousand.
Exam... PapSmear, Cultures, ... what I've deemed "Palpation of my Uterus" which the doctor says is "enlarged" and "definitely pregnant"... then all sorts of talking and reviewing.

It still doesn't seem real. There is an alien growing in my uterus. My body is now an apartment for a small being. Seems creepy!!!

When I go back in 2 weeks we should see the Peanut with little arms, and possibly the heartbeat. It's very surreal. VERY SURREAL.


So, all excitement aside, this week has been very taxing. The weather has caused a fabulous Fibromyalgia flare, and I can't take anything. ... oh, wait, I can take Tylenol... which just just a HAIR above NOTHING. The Fibro is irritating my IBS, which is making me feel like CRAP in general, on top of the nauseous, punched in the boobs feeling I'm already experiencing.

LUCKILY, all this hasn't impacted any of the Chiari or Chiari Symptoms. THAT is a plus. My OBGyn knows quite a bit about Chiari, and he's hopeful I'll be ok w/out meds.

At this point, with my weight and medical issues (since they're being controlled and conquered) I really shouldn't have to worry much about being a "High Risk" Pregnancy... but around/after week 20 we should have a better idea.


.... I still can't believe there is a pod person growing in me... weird.